hi guys i finally made a neocities page this is so awesome. im finally putting the skills i learned for computer to use!!!! admittedly, i don't really do a lot in computer. i never take the time to watch all of the video tutorials, i get bored. so i just raw dog it lmfao. but it hasnt failed me so far!!! (yet). i hope it doesnt have to be "yet" though haha. anyways, its christmas eve. or hanukkah eve. i dont really follow jewish tradition tbf, my dads side of the family is christian so i just do what they do most of the time. this year, however, it just. i dont really know lol. it doesnt really feel like christmas. i dont know why, though. its kind of sad, i guess? i dont know how to explain it. christmas was never my favorite, nor was hanukkah. i was more of a halloween kinda guy haha. i hope that i can keep up with these entries and add new entries atleast once a week (4 times a week at the least is ideal, however). i dont want this to become some sort of "wasted" project. that would be upsetting. but, anyways, i dont know what im going to do tomorrow. i dont think either of my parents got me anything. it was only my sister (so far atleast i guess). im not with my mom on christmas this year. i hope my dad will let me go to rex's house tomorrow though. we plan to sneak a bit of alcohol into his water bottle and get stoned in the park behind his house haha. im *supposed* to have a sleep over at his house tomorrow, but i dont know if my dad would let me. it pisses me off because my mom would but ohhh i have to go to my grandpas this year on christmas when it was always on christmas eve???? what the fuck?? i dont fucking know why were going on christmas this year, its really fucking pissing me off. anyways im probably gonna end this entry for now, ill add another paragraph if i update it again.
my dads mad so now im mad lol im actually gonna push this guy into oncoming traffick. i just asked him a simple question "are we going anywhere on christmas?" and now hes yelling at me and making me feel like shit just for fucking asking if were going anywhere tomorrow???? im pulling my hair out yo im sick of this shit please kill me man
merry christmas!!!!! couldnt even get out of bed this morning lawl. but im out of bed now so its fine!!! im probably just gonna watch south park for a majority of the day, maybe play a bit of minecraft or onigiri on the side until i have to go see my grandparents and hopefully have a sleep over with rex. my day isnt very eventful. i hope that this can be a decent christmas haha. im probably gonna try to rebuild my very first minecraft world; i think i mightve been in 3rd grade. i added one of these guys in my class and we played minecraft a lot, mostly on my world. i had this very large house, except there was one problem with it. the wall was 3 blocks high, meaning, since the roof takes one block, my house was extremely flat and i coudlnt jump around. i plan to rebuild it but with a more convenient structure. it also had an animal farm around all the sides and the back of the house, no plant farm. so i plan to rebuild that too but maybe with a section for plants aswell. there was also a village nearby that i tortured. i dont know why. i dont think i can recreate that part, but i can make a secret villager torture dungeon in the basement. maybe. anyways, im goign to get to my normal daily activites until im forced out of the house. bye bye!!!!
rex got a guitar and were going to decorate it with stickers n shit when i get there. im also gonna bring my iron and hair drier that i dont use anymore to do his hair since he doesnt have one haha. were trying to save money to get an amp for the guitar, hes going to teach me how to play guitar. i wanna learn a few radiohead songs so bad.. im excited. i also love viktor a lot. hes very pretty. i keep going back and looking at photos and videos of him and i get so emotional because hes so cute and i jsut wanna squeeze him and pull his cheeks until they tear off of his face. and then ill keep the skin in a plastic bag. or maybe a jar with embalming liquid HAHA. i need to harvest his organs but instead of selling them ill keep them in jars on top of my shelf over my bed. ill use his skin as a curtain lawl. i want him so bad auuuh it isnt funny i NEED him im going to cry i love him so much auguhghah i love you viktor plssssssss
guess who almsot fainted twice in the shower and then fainted while he was finding clothes? me!!! today is awesome
going to leave in an hour... this is scary. wont update until tomorrow most likely unless i log into neocities on my phone lawl. i might. who knows. im afraid of accidentally fucking up the code on my phone and being unable to fix it. its whatever though, itll be fine.
i hate this fake ass ho. heh.. gonna be a misogynist to be more masculine...!:) bitch r we being for real rn im gonna slap you across the face. hop off brother pls go outside and say "im a misogynist i hate women" infront of a crowd of people. im gonna bet you 5 dollars that they are going to either A) not care B) give you a look or C) the transphobes witness and start posting about "heh all trannies are misogynists...:)". like. girl. man to man rq you dont need to be a misogynist and emotionally detached to be "masculine". i am emotionally detached but that is natural because of mental issues. im also not a misogynist i would say, i just really dont like to interact with women and try to avoid them. i am scared of women, if you will. again, for mental health/trauma reasons n shit like that. if you wanna be masculine so fucking bad then like. cut your hair. wear a flannel. use a binder??? speak like a guy? maybe NOT post and then use the tags "#girlblogger!!!!! #im just a girl!!!! #hell is a teenage girl!!!!". retard lol. i think that everyone who voluntarily wants to be a misogynist/misandrist/whatever and/or emotionall detached needs to go outside and take a breath of fresh air? maybe feel some grass between your fingers while youre at it? anyways, i tried a coffee monster for the first time today. it was salted caramel. it was good, ill probably get another next time i go to the gas station. yesterday i also got a purgen tshirt and some camoflague cargos, i love them a lot and im wearing them right now haha. i think ive become immune to the cold, im not wearing sweaters outside anymore. i rawdog it LOL. going to school in 30-40 degrees fharenheit (i dont know how to spell it) weather without a sweater? no big deal, its just a little chilly. however, i do admit, when its breezy, it bothers me a little bit. but, i mean, who doesnt get bothered by breeze? it fucks up my hair and makes my clothes look weird. thats probably it for tonight, my dad might cut off the wifi for a while. but its alright, ill probably be back tomorrow; ill be at my moms house. bye bey!!!